Hey friends i am sorry school is not making me regular here. I would try my best to keep you updated weekly.
This story is written for me. Enjoy....
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You have heard of love at first sight? Yes, we were friends at first sight. At first, it was the easy going type conversation- the hellos and his. The line was drawn friends we were, yes, just friends- the usual first replies to friends asking "who is she?" "is she your girl friend?" We were just friends
Tessy is a petite looking creature. Her statue betrays her age. She is twenty- three but looks sixteen. Tessy and i have been 'besties' for five years now, one, two...five, yes, five years. She was like a mother and a sister. We shared evrything together, the hard times and the happy times. Did i just say everything? Oh no! We didn't share the same bed. I am the good boy type, the yes mummy and yes daddy type.
Everything went well until that moment, that moment when i fell in love with Tessy. Our conversations grew from the normal casual talks to intimate. I know we joked about it, I know she didnt feel the same way at first. But to me it was no joke. I had stumbled into my greatest fears- falling in love, not just with anyone but with my own best friend.
Sleepless nights and day dreams took over my soul. Thoughts of her overshadowed me. When i ate, she was at the table, when i walked she was by my side. She was everywhere i was. This feeling was killiing me.
I was going to tell her how I felt I thought to myself. "But she is older than you." "And so what?" I was conflicting within me.
I remember that day. How cold I was standing in front of her, trying to force the word out of my mouth. It never came forth- I swallowed it. I Was scared of the unknown. Her stare scared me. I scared me. I felt like disappearing into the tin air but the air was so tin for me to pass through. I left her presence colder than i had come.
Loneliness was all over me. I didn't feel like she was there anymore. She had called me that evening to tell me she felt the same way but that it wasn'nt going to work out. I have ended up ruining a friendship I had built for five years.
look through your window pane. I am that man across the street standing in confusion at NO1 LONELY STREET
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